This Christmas

Last Christmas, through tears, I showed my mom the beautiful necklace he had got me for Christmas, all the while wondering why he had to get me something so wonderful that meant so much to me. I was so frustrated with my heart and how deep it had fallen. I was done with it, I said one last prayer… I had one final cry… I told God that I guess I had missed it, I was so sure that I had found "the one" …The intimacy with Christ that the journey I was on and the season I was in had brought me to led me to the point where God's will in my life meant so much more than a soul mate… I cried that Christmas day and told God "no more me….only You, Your heart, Your plans, Your will for my life." Had I not come to that point BEFORE now, I would still be alone and lost… I prayed that prayer on December 25, 2007. On January 7, 2007 Seth professed his love for me, and he told me that he couldn't imagine his future without me in it and wanted me by his side...forever. By March 14, 2007 we were engaged…. And yeah… we got married on July 8, 2007.

There are so many intricate details that complete the story of us, I still am convinced that we have the best "how we met" story ever. I am convinced that nothing's ever been so meant to be... Next to my beautiful relationship with my Creator, He is the best thing that's ever happened to me.

Seth loves me unconditionally,Brings out the best in me, knows the song of my heart.
He believes in my dreams….Reminds me of who I when other things in life try to define me.

Gives me room to be myself without expecting me to conform to expectations and he sees knowing me as a fascinating adventure...not a conquest.

He can tell what I need just by the look on my face.

He hears my heart when I'm not speaking.

He has always honored my convictions and values.

He values my ideas, thoughts and opinions.

He allows me to dream and if he needs to, creates room for my dreams in his life.

He protects me...in every way.

He defends me against everything that suggests anything that is inconsistent with who he knows I am.

He draws me out and challenges me to shine...never forcing me to suppress or change who I am.

He has gained my trust by the consistency of his character and the way he loves me.

Daily, he chooses to put the importance of the long term over the impulses of the immediate.

He has taught me what it means to live a life that glorifies our Creator in every way… we still are learning what this means and looks like, but we are learning together.

He is my best friend before he's ever anything else to anyone.

He stands by me.

He is patient with my weaknesses.

He challenges me to be a better person without trying to change who I am.

He safely holds my soul's deepest secrets and dreams.
He's beautiful.
He sings with me… for me.
He makes me laugh… all day everyday.
He makes my spirit overflow with joy.
Seth has taught me about a love that I never thought existed.
He STILL gives me butterflies… and I still love giving them back to him.